Three, count ’em, Three meals a day!

Well, as of last evening, my cohort has progressed to three “actual food” meals per day, with consideration regarding the meal replacements, which can also be included depending on need.
For me, I’m still including a couple of the chocolate shakes (320 calories total per day) in my meal planning. They are convenient, and while not absolutely “tasty,” they are better than a mere “OK.”
Since I am hoping to continue to lose weight for awhile, I’m targeting a total of 1200 calories per day, and the old carpenter in me seems oddly attached to 3-4-5 (a handy right triangle for determining if a corner is “square” – 90 degrees). Of course, I need to adapt that to my current situation: Weight loss, and the multiplier of 100 for each digit. Thus, the reality of my plan is actually… Breakfast – 500 calories, Lunch – 400 calories, and dinner – 300 calories. However, I’ve broken away from the traditional “three meals per day” and am back to what I did as a child – grazing my way through the day. The variation? Now the first six hours of the day will be breakfast and a mid-morning snack – the first 500. Then lunch and a mid-afternoon snack that combine to the the next 400, and finally dinner and an evening snack that complete the plan with the last 300 calories for the day.

Perhaps the most significant change to my diet behaviors (this is, after all, a behavior modification program), has been to break free of my “addition” to milk, half and half, and white sugar. Like an alcolholic, I always made sure that there were sufficient supplies of all three on hand. And “sufficient” could be read as “lots.” I’ve not touched the unholy trinity for over four months, and attribute most of my weight loss success to that simple change. I do, at times, really miss the cream in my coffee, and that “white” concoction sweetened excessively. Happily, while missed, it’s not missed to the level that I can’t wait to get back to the pattern. Surprisingly, I really am OK for the vast majority of the time with keeping the new status quo – coffee “whitened” with unsweetened almond silk, then sweetened with a touch of stevia. While it tastes nothing like what I used to drink, it is surprisingly acceptable. And on those days when I need something more, I do a mocha instead, using the soy-based chocolate shake – though that does add 160 calories. The silk adds at most 15.

I’m off on a five day trip to Death Valley with my best friend. The challenge on the trip will be to make appropriate menu selections from the restaurant fare. I believe my friend can be easily recruited as a supporter for my continuing goal.

Well, time to post grades for my RN students, then pack and prepare for my 04:00 departure tomorrow. If all goes well, there should be some photos, and maybe a video or two, to share. Fingers are crossed; there’s a report of another “super bloom” in Death Valley. I had the good fortune to see a similar event in 2005.

Stay Well,


I Quit Drinking for This?

I’ve been sober 90 days now, and I guess I didn’t know what I expected from sobriety, but I really didn’t expect what’s happened.  All the feelings I used to escape: the hurt, the anger, the frustrations of everyday life, everything I’ve tried to avoid most of my life, is in my face!
I know that drinking is not the answer, at least I know it in my head, but my gut keeps telling me: “Have a drink! Get rid of those nasty, painful, feelings.”  It’s not easy.
What to do?  Go to meetings, for one.  But even at a meeting it’s hard to admit to wanting a drink.  That’s a topic that rarely comes up, at least at the meetings I attend.  The topic of drinking, what it’s done in the past, what it could lead to in the future, all fine and dandy.  But admit to wanting a drink?  Apparently risky territory.
What else? Call my sponsor.  Good idea, but if I’m really willing to call my sponsor, I’ve found that I’m not really at the greatest risk for taking that first drink, buying a bottle…

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Drinking and Denial – Step 1, Do I Have A Problem?

My name’s…  InRecovery, and I’m an alcoholic.  For some years I’ve been relying on the Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) 12-step program to stay sober.  NurseBob has invited me, and some of my friends who are recovering, to share our experiences as recovering alcoholics and addicts.  I’ll be talking about my progression through AA’s 12-step program.  AA’s program is certainly not the only one out there, but it’s the one I’m most familar with.
If you are not familar with AA’s twelve steps, here they are:


Another new voice – InRecovery



Today I’m introducing yet another author – InRecovery. Actually, there will be several anonymous authors using this nom de plume. Most in recovery want or need to protect their true identity, so these posts will be the only posts on the site that are not directly attributed to the actual authors. Also, where I plan to use only licensed and/or certified authors in any of the other disciplines that I choose to represent on the blog, this one area will depart from that model and instead follow the peer counseling model used by many recovery and self-help organizations.
So, if you are in recovery, on the cusp of entering recovery, know someone in recovery, or want to know more about recovery, as well as the impacts of substance abuse on those involved, their loved ones and relationships in general, tune in.

Stay Well -NurseBob