I’ve been sober 90 days now, and I guess I didn’t know what I expected from sobriety, but I really didn’t expect what’s happened. All the feelings I used to escape: the hurt, the anger, the frustrations of everyday life, everything I’ve tried to avoid most of my life, is in my face!
I know that drinking is not the answer, at least I know it in my head, but my gut keeps telling me: “Have a drink! Get rid of those nasty, painful, feelings.” It’s not easy.
What to do? Go to meetings, for one. But even at a meeting it’s hard to admit to wanting a drink. That’s a topic that rarely comes up, at least at the meetings I attend. The topic of drinking, what it’s done in the past, what it could lead to in the future, all fine and dandy. But admit to wanting a drink? Apparently risky territory.
What else? Call my sponsor. Good idea, but if I’m really willing to call my sponsor, I’ve found that I’m not really at the greatest risk for taking that first drink, buying a bottle…
My name’s… InRecovery, and I’m an alcoholic. For some years I’ve been relying on the Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) 12-step program to stay sober. NurseBob has invited me, and some of my friends who are recovering, to share our experiences as recovering alcoholics and addicts. I’ll be talking about my progression through AA’s 12-step program. AA’s program is certainly not the only one out there, but it’s the one I’m most familar with.
If you are not familar with AA’s twelve steps, here they are:
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